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[24 Jun 2005|10:08pm] |
well. i'm alive!
today i went for lunch with my L Ladies. we had italian. and a pretty-boy waiter.
then shopping and i got to listen to the techno music of abercrombie. score..?
then home and finished packing!
i leave for camp tomorrow! please miss me if you find the time.
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[28 Jul 2004|05:57pm] |
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Wow. I hasn't written here in a long long time have I?
Welp, lets see. I don't feel good. I got sick on the way home from Texas I think. So yesterday I just felt worse. And last night I felt the need to barf. But I didn't. Because I haven't since second grade. Lorre hasn't since 5th. We've got streaks. Yay!
So I woke up at like 5:30 feeling barfy and almost did. But I didn't. Yeah. Then I called Brandon at 6 to annoy him and make him feel sorry for me being sick. So he came over at 6:30 before football practice at 7. Yay! It made me feel better.
Today I've just sat around. I hoola hooped in my living room while watching star wars. now thats fun.
and i drew a pretty picture for riley! i adore it.
welp. thats all!
<cedy3
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glkjlkhjlkhjajhlkajh;ljhljjrtlhjmsnmlkjhlks says:
*picks nose*
glkjlkhjlkhjajhlkajh;ljhljjrtlhjmsnmlkjhlks says:
*picks your nose*
don't let me down; you were the last thing left to believe in. says:
ah, always such a lady.
glkjlkhjlkhjajhlkajh;ljhljjrtlhjmsnmlkjhlks says:
of course.
don't let me down; you were the last thing left to believe in. says:
you know
don't let me down; you were the last thing left to believe in. says:
it's kind of funny
don't let me down; you were the last thing left to believe in. says:
because now my nose itches
<33 and so much more.
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[01 Jul 2004|09:45pm] |
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Hmmm I'm bored.
Sometimes I feel so mean and useless. Like all I'm here for is to be that rude girl. I dont know. I just over-observe people I think. And then I say my opinions on them randomly and I think I come off as a bitch for it. I judge too much. I need to stop that.
Anyways. Yeah. Yesterday the kids came over and we watched Peter Pan. Hahaha me and Mandy forced the boys to watch it. It was really.. umm. stupid. Yeah. I never knew that Peter Pan was some sort of love story..?
So today I went to the dentist. Gah. And I sat around and downloaded music. Yay!
I got a new display picture. Ain't he just so hot? Yeah. Thought so.
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[30 Jun 2004|07:48pm] |
I just love Laine. She is so nice to make my LJ pretty again. I love it. So simply pretty. *Mad Kisses for Laine*
Anyhow. Umm. I haven't written here in a long time. Well. Not much has changed.
I'm all stopped up right now. Shhekrjeajhat. Thats what my nose feels like.
Ummm tonight Brandon Mandy and T are coming over. So thats fun. But Brandon knows so I will have to be careful of him.. Haha Rin knows what I'm talking about..
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[02 Jun 2004|09:20am] |
Type your username with your...
Nose: viaibiza
Elbow: viaibnizxsqqa (I think my elbow got fatter towards the end there...)
Tongue: viaibiza (wow, my keyboard is damp in some spots not. But I'm like Jessie... talented with my tongue. gross)
Chin: vfciAKBN IUSAZA (whoa, accidentally turned the caps lock on too. gosh, my chin is HUGE)
Foot: viaibiza (WHOOO HOO... wait, it is cheating to put the keyboard on the floor?)
Eyes closed: viaibiza
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[01 Jun 2004|11:28am] |
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SO! Um, Friday was my last day of school and a half day. I didn't take a lot of pictures. Oh well. Then right after school I came home and packed like a mad-woman and then we drove to Indiana. And then we went to our hotel and it was cool b/c we got upgraded to a bigger room and it rocked. Then Saturday we shopped for food and stuff, hung around the pool, and talked to all our friends. My parents have been going for like, 30 years or something with these people they used to work with and they're all just really good friends now and everyone comes from all over to get together and see the race.
Then on sunday we got up and drove to the track. We always park in this person's driveway, like everyone does, and then walk about a mile to the track b/c there isn't any parking lot or anything for the track. Then it started late b/c of a rain delay, and then it started, then there was another delay, and it finished, my guy won so I got 20 bucks, and then there were TORNADO warnings right as we were leaving the stands so we had 20 minutes to get to our cars b/c the tornadie was heading right for the track. and it was overall scary. eek. I'm done.
Then monday we drove home and then I went swimming monday night and burned things.
I'm tired.
( PICS! )
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[27 May 2004|01:02pm] |
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Hmm. My journal is screwed up. Anyone wanna volunteer to pretty it up? Eh, didn't think so...
Anyhow... Yesterday I went to a movie with Lauren my dearest. Just me and her and it was fun. We saw Shrek 2.
So today I stole Liz's Digi Cam and emailed myself all the pics. They're ones Lauren took of me and other kids 'ballin it up' (playing knock out) and they're 'extreme action shots' as lauren says. Anyway HERE THEY ARE B/C I AM BORED. Score.
( Piccers )
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[23 May 2004|01:53pm] |
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Wow, it really has been a looong time. Sorry I haven't been around guys.
So. Um. Yes. Soccer season is over. School is over on Friday, but I don't have to take finals so all I get to do is go and sit in calls and color/listen to CDs/read. But thats always fun, so I'm happy.
Things coming up: Tuesday, going shopping with Lauren. Wednesday, random fun with Jess and Brandon and Daddy-D. Thursday, Dashboard/Get up Kids/Thrice concert with Lauren, Liz, my sister and her friends, Erin, Yaz, Brandon, and some other people who want to stand with us. Friday, I leave for Indiana to see the Indy 500. I've gone every year since second grade... I can't wait to see my amanda! Then next thursday/friday is seeing the first showing of HP, then the next day is Aubrey's birthday party, then on sunday I'm going galactic bowling with Belinda, Toniffer, and Mandy. Yay. So exciting next few weeks.
( Click or Die. )
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[29 Apr 2004|07:32pm] |
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I'm so tired lately. I'm so eager for April to end. So much shit has happened this month.
Anyway... This week my grandparents flew in from Florida. They annoy me so much, which almost makes me feel guilty but not quite. So, my family went to the Royals game last night but Gaby couldn't go so I invited Lauren and we had a lot of fun being incredably obnoxious fans and yelling at the players and umpires from the upper deck. Yeah. It really was a lot of fun.
Today people really started pissing me off, maybe because it's almost that time of the month. But I was just sitting at lunch having a private conversation but Jaryd and Lucas and Brandon just feel they should listen in and comment on every little thing and I am just sooooo sick of their bullshit. They act so superior all the time and talk so much crap and I just can't stand it anymore. So I got up and dragged Lauren and Ty with me and we sat outside of the lunch room.
Meh. I'm so confused. I shouldn't be, but I'm still sort of... eh, I can't decide. I need to talk to my Jess.
Ok, bye.
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[20 Apr 2004|06:01pm] |
So. My weekend was really great. Until Sunday.
I was feeling sick so I stayed home and my mom went to service. Then she came home really early, and I was like what? Then I saw that she was crying. I was like, mom? Whats wrong? And she sat down next to me and said "Do you know who Kevin Couch is?" I was like, yes. He's a kid that was in my youth group last year and is in eighth grade. And she was crying and I was like, oh no. What happened? I was thinking maybe he got in an accident and was hurt or maybe even died. She just looks at me and says "Kevin committed suicide yesterday." I was just thinking no. No, not Kevin. No, that's not what happened. That's not something Kevin would do. No, no, no.
But it's true. He shot himself with his dad's gun. (His dad is a cop) I just... I don't know. I didn't know him that well. I did last year when we were in youth together, but then this year I hadn't talked to him much. But still. I'd seen him at church and we'd talked a little. I just don't get it.
He had so much going for him. He was a really good wrestler and a smart kid. He came from an upper class nice family and was a really cute kid.
I cried so much. I just wish I could have done something. I mean I know there was no way I could have known, but still...
I think I may know one reason that contributed to it all. I wrote an entry about Floyd's brother who died. Well, the other guy that was in the car who also died was Kevin's boy scout mentor person.
Eighth grade is so young. I can't imagine being so lost that I would feel I have to resort to a gun.
It's so selfish. There are so many people to hurt. I was sitting in my room thinking about him and crying and all and I was looking at my bulletin board that's full of pictures, and I couldn't help seeing how many people there were to hurt. And I didn't even know him that well. I'm almost glad I didn't, which sounds so rude. But it's true. I don't want someone close to die again. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
But this is still hitting me hard.
Sunday night I couldn't sleep, and when I did, I had dreams about him, and about my friends doing something like that.
On monday I thought about him at school. And then I went to the doctor's office. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I was getting frustrated because of the little kids everywhere and I don't like kids. Then the stupid doctor wanted to test me for strep and I told her I knew I just had allergies thank you very much. And I was still emotional about Kevin and thinking about him even then and I started crying - right there in the doctor's office. I'm not big on crying, but I've been a wreck lately.
His visitation thing is on Thursday. I don't want to go. I don't think I can handle it. All I can think of is the funny Kevin I knew one year ago. He was so nice. He went out with Lauren for a little while. Like, a week. But he was so funny and he's just someone no one would expect.
I watched this movie in health last semester about this guy who killed himself and how his family got screwed up because of it and it just makes me hope his family will be alright. He had a brother and sister both in college. His brother was the one who found him. Just, pray for them.. please. I just hope they'll be ok eventually.
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[15 Apr 2004|08:12pm] |
Time for a entry where I tell what's been goin' on. Yay!
Monday we didn't have school.
Tuesday was a half day because MAP (missouri assessment something) is all this week for sophmores and juniors. So freshman just go to school and sit in a little room for four hours. FUN. Then I rode the bus home for like an hour. I am the last stop on the express routes they are running this week. I talked to Joey on the bus and he asked if I wanted to hang out so when I got home Kaitlyn (my sister's friend) was over and offered me a ride to Joeys. I hadn't hung out with him since summer. It was really nice. I wish he didn't smoke pot. He's a cool kid otherwise. Really funny. So we hung around his house a little. Then we walked around his neighborhood. lol. I almost got in a fight with some litte eight year old. I hate kids.
Wednesday was another half day. Hmm. Did nothing much at all really. Had a soccer practice. Yupp.
Thursday - today - Ohh today was fun. Half day and all. Then my mom picked me up (thank god no bus ride from hell!) and we got something to eat and then I got dropped off at home. Me and Kaitlyn and Gaby tanned outside on my driveway and Vivi (my sister's friend) cme over to use our printer. Then Brian (my sis's best friend lol all her friends were over today) came over and sat with us too. Then Gaby went with Vivi to a doctors appointment b/c viv has swollen glands or something and Kait and I sat in the back of Brian's truck and then he brought us our chairs and we all sat in his truck until Viv and Gaby came back. Then I had a soceer game. Lost. Fun. I came back and then Brian had to go and then Kait did. Then Gaby and Viv and I went to the YMCA *dances* and sat in the hot tub. twas niiice. Then we ate Mr Goodcents and I'm here. I need sleep.
I want my friends to be happy.
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[13 Apr 2004|09:30pm] |
I just got finished reading all my online friends journals. They've all got all this going on that I didn't know about and they all say how much they love one another for always being there.
I feel like I used to be there, but I'm not anymore.
Is it insane that I'm jealous of them being so close?
Like Jessie said, I don't think they know how much they mean to me. I come home and get on the computer just to talk with them. I think about them at school sometimes when something reminds me of them. If my boyfriend is about to kiss me, I just about crack up thinking about Rin and us being extreme MOVs. I get home wanting to talk to Jess about my friends and get advice. They're all so much more down to earth than people here. They're honest and helpful and I don't know where I'd be without them. Who would I talk to?
I care for them a lot. And when I read about them having problems I wish I could be/could have been there to talk with them.
I feel out of the loop. Like I'm losing friends.
And you know what? My friends here don't even know about my online people. It's like I'm embarrassed to say that I have a group of people online who I trust to talk about thing with more than people I actually have met. I have trust issues. I still can't talk to anyone at all about certain things. But that's beside the point.
It's just... you guys mean a lot to me. I would have a lot bottled up without you. You guys bring me back down so I don't pity myself so much.
Just.. yeah.. thanks.
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[13 Apr 2004|09:29pm] |
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.
Ask me anything you want.
Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
C'mon people, I want comments! Pretty please?
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So I get this call from Neil around 5:30 last night..he sounded upset so I knew somethin was up, and when he said "Have you watched the news?" i got really scared. So he told me what happened. Ryan's brother (aka floyd), Darren Floyd, had died in a car accident. I'd only met Darren once, but man. I didn't know what to say, or do. So when he got off the phone, I turned on the news. And sure enough, they had a story on it. I watched as they interviewed Ryan. He was crying. It tore me up, I just looked at him, wanting to cry myself. And for a split second, I was like holy shit what if my sister died? Then I thought about Nikki.
God, I felt so bad for Floyd, and I still do. I don't know what I'm gonna do or say next time I see him. Then they showed the car, and it was horrible, i couldn't watch. Yea I didn't know Darren. And you know what, I don't even know Ryan really incredably well, but for some strange reason i just wanted to go see Floyd and give him a great big hug.
Later that night, when I was talking to Neil, he was telling me all these things. All I could do was sit there and listen for that whole hour and a half. I had nothing to say, I didn't know what to say. What could I have done? Now Neil's in springfield for the day. and I feel horrible. I feel like I did nothing last night. I feel like nothing to him. I wanted to help him, you know to make him feel better. But I couldn't do that. Neil and Floyd both looked up to Darren so much. Neil had been best friends with Floyd since like, 2nd grade, and had known darren that long too. He was like his own brother. I usually have something to say for everything, but for this, I didnt. I feel like i couldnt do anything, which I can't. But I've been wondering, what are things gonna be like next time I'm with Neil? And I dont know what I'm suppose to say, or what i'm suppose to do....
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Sooo. Yesterday I went to the Royals game with Neil and his dad and little brother and older brother. I'd never met the older one. He's tall and scary and doesn't like people - or so Neil said. But he was funny and cool and nice.
The game was FAB. My one and only JIMMY GOBBLE pitched. Wahahha, it was freeeeeezing out though.
Oh, gosh, guys, there was a STREAKER! It was AWESOME! He jumped out of the satnds by third base and ran into center field... LMAO I couldn't stop laughing. It was a good night.
How do you make a friends only thing? I neeed one. I want to be all cool and friends only. But I need a cool banner. Anyone who can help me out, please comment!
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So. On Thursday I had practice and then school. Then we play SJC in the rain. We lost 3-0 but it should have been 2-0 but the ball hit off one of our own girls foot and she scored on us. Ahhhh. So I was really mad/upset. That's fun.
Friday I had school, then practice. Then I hurried out of practice and got to go watch Neil's baseball team play our baseball team. They killed us. I guess guys at their school can't make anything better than C team as freshman or something, so they have a lot of really good players and our team doesn't because our really really good ones are on JV and such. So yeah, 6-0. Fabbb. My little Ty pitched. Poor dear. And Heather's boyfriend was pitching for Neil's team. He's goood. Ok. Must stop rambling. Then I went home and was cool and rented a movie and watched it by myself.
Saturday I did not much. Then Liz and Lauren and I went to the charity for a cause production of Arsenic and Old Lace. It was really happy/sad when they gave Jeremy his new wheelchair lift and some dealership gave him a new van for it. Liz cried. Then the show was funny because one guy got sick halfway through so the director of the play had to improv. his part. Very funnny... I laughed real hard. Then we talked with Mark and his punk-fabulous friends and Liz and I reallly want Lauren to go out with Mark. They'd be so cute. Hmmm, then Lauren and I went to my house and we watched Schindler's List and went to bed around four.
Sunday, today, we got up and went to chuch. Now I need to do some homework. But I felt like I first needed to write a long and completely pointless entry. Done.
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